Hello mojo…long time no see!
feeling good about myself
forgot how that feels.
no wonder my inner mojo disappeared
it was feeling ignored…
Just because I was treated like yesterdays trash
does it mean I have nothing more to give?
For the last 5 + years
it was always about him, Tunie B., the store, the new cookbook, the website, the magazines, the partners, the customers, the friends, the family(s)….
Sometimes I wonder?
if I had the emotional support…the all knowing feeling that no matter what..someone has got my back…
that I have craved and searched for…all my life…
Life’s little mojo eating monsters..would have never gotten the chance to feast on
the magic sparkle that was …all… Sarah.
but wondering does nothing …but keep me rooted in my place.
Time to make a move
and woo that mojo back!
so enough is enough
that saying you hear ….”sometimes just looking good…makes you feel good”
well..ain’t that the truth!
I have decided
this is going to be the SUMMER OF ME.
those extra 35 pounds I have been carrying
well… Tunie B is almost 3!!!
my closet love for hobo chic.. has become more HOBO then CHIC
well… now its gonna be back to the old tre’s fabulous me!
most importantly… I am taking the time
“clean house” of all things
people, clothes, sheitels, memories…nothing is safe (negative words & attitudes included)
and let my inner mojo
take over and lead the way to a happy, new adventure filled….
Summer of Me (& Tunie B.)
exhilarating …more like it
hello mojo…LONG time no see!
First thing that had been bothering me for the longest time was that I had no wig in decent condition. Since my initial first year of marriage purchase of 2 Shevys and 2 Isabellas (for the store) I had not seen a new wig in 5 years. Now for many this is not such a tragedy..but for me, with the constant cooking and standing over high heat, my wigs have been abused..ALL of them. And as many times as I have added hair, bringing it to get washed 3 times a month, switching them, dying & cutting them, babying them… I was down to one wearable wig…that had a nice bald spot at the top.
Lucky for me… standing at 5’10, only a select few got to see
But in the last few months getting dressed never felt good, the wig being a a major component of my disappointing reflection. G-d was good, because there is no other explanation as to how I was able to get money for this wig. Money when you are divorcing and are self employed (ie..many times jobless and no money coming in) is always scarce. You are grateful everyday that you have food in your fridge, a roof over your head, and clothes on your back.
My grandmother had given me a South African gold coin necklace when I was 16. I had worn it proudly for many years.
However, about 5 years ago, I had thought I had lost it. It was no where to be found, not the house safe, not in my mothers stuff, no where.
On my last day in my old house, I noticed that the safe that was in the closet was locked, remembering that I had given a key to my ex, I wondered what was in there…my birth certificate, some important paperwork, something my mother might have left, who knows? I managed to get the safe open pretty easily, and there it was…my long lost gold coin!!!!
How? Who?, When? I am not asking…but the second I saw it, I started to cry..because I just knew…Hashem wanted me to have it…knew I needed it, and it was literally manna from heaven.
I decided to sell it right off, knowing how much the coin was worth, but not the chain or pendant…..I had a sort of number in my head. Realizing I probably would have enough to just cover a wig..maybe.
I had no regrets of selling the coin for a wig, because I knew I would never really wear the coin again and a WIG …well that was worth the money and investment..and would be ever so much more appreciated. Bottom line – there was NO ONE around who was going to fund a new one -it was up to me.
Investigating a few places locally, I went in and handed the coin, chain and pendant to the gold merchant. To my surprise, the chain alone was worth DOUBLE the coin!!
Now you tell me…Does G-d not run this world? I am not one of these preachy type people.. but everyday I have seen literally his hands at work.
Yes -G-d has not been easy with me, sometimes I think he is having a little too much fun ..at my expense. But, at the same time, things..my life, is really not as bad as some people… who are really experiencing tremendous hardship and suffering with no ability or strength to overcome them…
My complaints…well I can still have them, I earned the right… as long as I realize too.. that I am really LUCKY! I have the power to make the best of the situation.
Some days are just harder than the rest…but those are becoming fewer and far between. I really am starting to believe all the hype my friends and family have been spouting..life will be so much better than I could ever imagine.
So..for those of you who are loosing the faith….well my friend…I am proof…it WILL get better…give it time.
Start with making yourself feel good..weather its a new wig like me or making yourself feel healthier. And yes endorphins is not a myth – so excersize..walk on the beach, do a yoga class, eat the salad and then eat the bite of cake, instead of eating the cake and then thinking about the salad..all these things help you start the search….
your mojo will be back.
wear…the SARY WIG
Just because I love my new wigs..and Shaindy Braun has created a product that is not only reasonably priced but seriously, RIVALS, any expensive hand-made wig out on the market today (kudos for her tenacious efforts the last 3 years to make this dream a reality). I must plug her wig brand to all of you - THE SARY WIG!!!
I am telling you…I have never worn a wig that I love more than this one. It is perfect with my widows peak..the bane of my wig buying, and it is full with gorgeous silky hair. Yes it is a little long, but the pictures you are seeing are how I walked out of the store, I have not cut it yet, and I am thinking…maybe i will keep it like this (just trim the ends) …I’m kinda liking this new me
look - NO MORE BALD SPOT!! woohoo!
the back is full and long (ok so maybe I need to cut it …a little!)
$1299 a wig and if you mention my name and website she will cut you a deal!!! ( I am not making a penny!)
Shaindy with just some of her wigs