the lonely birds…

for all intents & purposes I had a wonderful weekend

thursday night..out with the girls

shabbat..by one of my oldest & dearest

sunday… a bat mitzvah party to behold

yet…the lonely birds are flying over my head

and have landed themselves around my heart.

it is hard..to keep a smile on my face

even though..I am genuinely thrilled..for all the happiness

that has befallen my friends.

a newly minted kalah(bride), a bat mitzvah girl, family fun shabbos filled with summer plans…

for them it seems…life is picture perfect.

I know it is an illusion…life is never perfect

but the lonely birds flap their little wings…

and I remember…all the little life moments..with my ex.

the excitement planning my own dream wedding.

shabbat meals filled with laughter and fun disputes

going to parties with a plus one…who would be your BFF in a room filled with strangers..

the only other person who would truly appreciate…how perfectly devilishly delish our Tunie B. was behaving at that party.

because all those little moments with him…were perfect.

were filled in my mind at least… with love and happiness…

and i miss it ….terribly.

those incessant lonely birds are here…keeping me company

and despite their presence I am trying my best to

smile my way through..

because really I am doing fine… every day better than the next

its just these new life moments…

are… lonely.

Tunie B. spent the whole day yesterday helping herself to her little hearts desire at the buffet…there is no doubt she is my kid!

Whats for Dinner Tonight?

Well for dinner tonight it’s Chicken nuggets for Tunie B. upon her request.. and for me..well I am gonna grill a salmon steak for one..little salt, pepper & some fresh garlic.

no recipe needed.

sometimes cooking for one..is not all its cracked up to be.

but tomorrow I have some recipe in the works I am testing…so stay tuned.