I came looking for some quick, easy and healthy summer recipes and now feel paralyzed by your pain. A pain that I know all too well. Been there. Done that. Twice! B”H I have been married to my current husband for 15 years – I hesitate to use the term “happily married” because I think that gives women the false impression that it is possible for someone to be in that state always and forever. I am happy that I married him, but I am not always happily married.
Why am I telling you this? Because I want to put out there in front of your tears the hope that it can and will get better for you. You are young, beautiful, talented, …. and b’ezrat Hashem, you will have an opportunity for a “do over”. In the meantime, crying it out is healthy and normal and I advise you to be patient with yourself. Focus on your passions, put your energy into them and you will experience joy and fulfillment from them – and for now, that has to be enough because you need (and owe yourself the time) to heal before you can be ready to share your life with another man.
I pray you will have a speedy lev refuah shleima, joy and all the things you need. Hashem is in control.
Shabbat Shalom,
Tehillah